Epiphany

So many things to say, so little time.

Friday night, my brother-in-law and nieces were over. I was in the living room and the oldest of our two nieces came walking into the room carrying Caedon and bouncing him. He is much too big for her to be doing this and I told her to stop. She didn't listen and two second later she dropped him. He landed on his head. I'm pretty sure my heart stopped and I felt a feeling of gut-wrenching fear that I have never come close to feeling before. I shouted at her and practically threw her out of the way to pick Caedon up. He was screaming and my heart, after it started beating again, was pounding. It turned out he was more scared than hurt, he just had a small bump on his head. When I realized he was ok, I went from being scared out of my wits to blindingly angry in a microsecond. My niece disobeyed and my son suffered for it. I barely resisted the urge to slam her head into the wall until she understood what could have happened. It was later when I was lying in bed that it hit me that it is my disobedience that put Jesus on the cross. Instead of wanting to slam my head into the wall until I understood the consequences of my actions, God wanted to love me. That was a pretty heavy thought for 1:00 in the morning. Being a father changes ones' outlook on a lot of things. There isn't anything I wouldn't do to keep Caedon safe. By the same token, there isn't anything God didn't do to save us.

Caedon continues to grow, he'll be nine months old on Thursday. He's almost walking, although he refuses to spend any time on his stomach learning to crawl. His personality seems to expand every day. A year ago, I couldn't imagined what life with a baby would be like. Now, I can't imagine what it would be like without him. I've found that the Disney channel is about the best thing ever on Sunday mornings. Caedon will sit enraptured watching Little Einsteins and Mickey Mouse Club while we get ready for church.

Softball is fast approaching and I'm so excited I can taste it. Oh for the long summer days and the smell of pine tar. I was quite happy with the way the Indians started the season. It will be nice to finally see their home opener tonight from Milwaukee. Does anyone else see the stupidity of how the first series or two of the season was scheduled? Teams with a dome playing teams without one in the frozen north? Give me a break.

I'm sick of the posturing and strutting by the Presidential hopefuls already, and the election is a year and half away! Politicians are mostly scum, regardless of party.

If you haven't seen 300, do so. It was fantastic. I just finished House by Frank Peretti and Ted Dekker. It was also fantastic. Musically, I've been listening to a lot of mid 80's to mid 90's country. I'm not sure why.

Indians over the Mets in six. I can feel it.